Dear blog

Where do I even begin to explain how far I have stood from you, it has indeed been a while since I last wrote something. But now that I'm here...Let's see what I have to tell you

I somehow feel older for my age, 
The feelings I have are bigger than me because they are taking over me,
The dreams I have are greater than what I could possibly achieve,
The words I say, the things I do hurt me:
Because I lie...
I lie about the way I feel to make the next person happy and I won't lie again now and say I'm not hurting.

I've never believed that being in a state of intoxication has ever healed a wound,
But for the first time I relied on it,
I cried,
I prayed,
and I cried...
That's the thing about me,
When I care about something,
When I care about someone- I care alot- and I give it my all.
But when I reach the point of not caring, I don't care at all: and right now that's where I stand.

Life goes on.
I've lost so many people in my life, and here I am...
Still standing :)
what makes one even believe they would destroy you? whereas,
there have been in your life for less than 5 years. 

I hope life treats you well...
I hope this.
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