The thoughts and wishes,
they all stay with me,
all of these contained in my book of memories.   

Dear blog

Today I finished my exams and tomorrow, I go home... I longed for this day for weeks and weeks but now that it's finally here I'm not so keen. The expression of ''goodbyes'' is my greatest weakeness, I know for a fact I'm not the strongest in the world,infact I'm weak in emotion. A 6 week vacation is quiet long and one would never know the things that may happen in that period of time, because I remember the last (longest) vac we went for we lost a friend that we were only getting to know. I'm afraid to confess that I'm scared of life, but that is just how it is. I will ,everyday, put my friends, in my deepest prayers,that, I promise. But ofcourse I'm happy that I'm going home but,I worry.

Today I found out that the Grocott's Mail requests to use my tabloid page, which is great!! Atleast there is one thing to be truly happy about from this day. Ow and...

Today I saw him

                                                                       xoxo ♥

TeamSHORTS

To think of it...I love short things.
Just a week ago, a friend of mine was helping me cut my dress SHORTER,why? simply because I wanted to.Having  a small body allows one to wear anything, no matter how short because we bearly have anything to reveal anyway. Not that we're not sexxy though LOL! But if there's one thing I would never do, walking around in a bikini. There's absolutely nothing wrong with it,but for me thats a bit toO much. Thank you *drops mic and exits the stage*

I actually love shades more than shoes even!!

its a life style

One wouldn't understand the reason behind smoking until they get addicted,I guess.
Explaining it would be like trying to describe a color, where would I even begin with that?
It's a lifestyle...I guess
The pleasure we get,I mean they get from it releases the mind,the brain, the heart even the intestines combined oOh but where can I begin. It all starts by ''just a puff'' whenever you see your peers smoke, a puff leads to ''just one'' and then next thing you know you buy boxes for yourself,continuosly. You start realizing that you crave, you get headaches, loose focus and concentration, get grumpy,bite nails non-stop, bite your toung till it bleeds, honestly, I wouldnt suggest this to anyone.Do I want to end up being that lady that buys 20z of boxes atleast twice a day? Do I want to end up like that old woman that can't even breathe properly? Ofcourse not duuh! But, its a lifestyle.

How late would it be if this would happen? ahaaa

A so-called-love story of a teenager

Based on a true story:::a story about a highschool teenager  (Hidden name)

“Being in high school has allowed me to leave in the absence of my parents and family, also it has led me to great changes of my life”-anonymous.

It was February 2009 when I changed schools from Sentenary High School to Avangers College which was an expensive private school. I wasn’t  familiar with the life I was heading to because where I come from, I don’t really have much to help me explore the world.

I was one of the students that arrived late, and everybody else had settled down to their dommatries and classes. I was scared, I was uncertain about what was coming my way. I remember that same evening, walking alone to the dining hall, clearly I had no friends but girls gave me looks; like they hated me already without any particular reason but I smiled at them and continued walking my way.

That was when I met him…

I was happy that out of all those girls, he came up to me. So we talked and even met later on that evening and continuously. And yes,I fell inlove with him and I strongly believed that he was inlove with me too. We’d go to the beach together, he would take me out to see all the gorgeous places, he even introduced me to his family his brothers and sister even his father. I even had a key to his house. He was my best friend, my lover, I felt like he was my biggest fan. I swear to God I was the happiest woman.

Until one day he decided to lay a hand on me. That’s when I saw a different side of him, but wait; I actually found that very sexy, I believed that it was his way of showing me that he really loves me, he really cares for me. It happened again two days later, and again and again, then I knew that this is how our relationship is going to be. And I was OK with that. My friends told me to leave this guy but I was too caught in the phase of love to even understand what they were saying. Ofcourse, our relationship continued…

It was the weekend, as usual my friends and I went out for drinks with other men, only to find out that my boyfriend knew one of those guys. So he called me on the other guys’ phone (and I quote) “bitch you gonna be sorry about  this” there I was soo scared, and I didn’t want to go back to school. So, my friends’ idea was for me to get super drunk to avoid the upcoming pain. I got sloshed!  Apparently we got to school and he heat so badly that I ended up in hospital. That’s when I came back to reality, after getting wasted the other night. I had a drip, I had injections in my veins, I had a pipe going through my nose and a pop on my forehead that was covered with a bandage. So I woke up and I started crying, I talked to the nurses they told me everything that happened. I was in pain physically and emotionally, for quite sometime I even lost my mind because I couldn’t remember his (my bf) number, my parents nor my friends’, I was so confused and scared of myself and for myself. I continued crying even more till I slept.

The next morning when I opened my eyes, I saw him sitting and crying next to me. So I started crying too, we cried, we talked, he kissed me and hugged, he bought me food and helped me to eat because I couldn’t, he made laugh, happy again, he talked to me until I went back to sleep again. When I woke up again, he was gone, and he left me a note saying “I love you” and his no.  I cried!

I was discharged and I was soo happy that I was going to see him…and my friends. Only to find out that he was expelled. I cried!

We were incontact for a while until he went to varcity to another province, but that didn’t prevent me from seeing him. As much as it was 15hours far, I still took a bus and went to see him, twice. Only to find out that he had another girlfriend there and I was just a sex slave.

Xoxo*

Ps:There is no man that can lay a hand on a woman that he loves,

no real man that enjoys seeing his woman hurt,

there's no such love like this...

A man's tears,do not always mean something.

The friends I have :)

A Prayer for Guidance and Protection

1 To you, O Lord, I offer my prayer;
2 in you, my God, I trust. Save me from the shame of defeat; don't let my enemies gloat over me!
3 Defeat does not come to those who trust in you, but to those who are quick to rebel against you.
4 Teach me your ways, O Lord; make them known to me.
5 Teach me to live according to your truth, for you are my God, who saves me. I always trust in you.
6 Remember, O Lord, your kindness and constant love which you have shown from long ago.
7 Forgive the sins and errors of my youth. In your constant love and goodness, remember me, Lord!
8 Because the Lord is righteous and good, he teaches sinners the path they should follow.
9 He leads the humble in the right way and teaches them his will.
10 With faithfulness and love he leads all who keep his covenant and obey his commands.
11 Keep your promise, Lord, and forgive my sins, for they are many.
12 Those who have reverence for the Lord will learn from him the path they should follow.
13 They will always be prosperous, and their children will possess the land.
14 The Lord is the friend of those who obey him and he affirms his covenant with them.
15 I look to the Lord for help at all times, and he rescues me from danger.
16 Turn to me, Lord, and be merciful to me, because I am lonely and weak.
17 Relieve me of my worries and save me from all my troubles.
18 Consider my distress and suffering and forgive all my sins.
19 See how many enemies I have; see how much they hate me.
20 Protect me and save me; keep me from defeat. I come to you for safety.
21 May my goodness and honesty preserve me, because I trust in you.
22 From all their troubles, O God, save your people Israel!

                                                             Goodluck for all your exams=From:Quezy